I am now a mother of 4 children. It's still kind of hard for me to believe. I feel so incredibly and underservingly blessed.
Donovan Sawyer Moran came out into the world on April 5 at 6:49 pm. He was 8 lb., 13 oz. (my biggest baby!) and 19.5 inches long. And just like his brother, he came earlier than expected....men!
I had always wondered as a teacher if I'd ever leave the school and go straight to the hospital, like my 5th grade math teacher, Mrs. Lopez did, and on Maundy Thursday, I did. :) My assistant principal drove me to the hospital.
The night Donovan was born, I walked myself into the operating room for a 4th time. I took my place on the table and waited for my spinal. Its amazing how something so scary can be so familiar that it isn't really scary anymore, just surreal. The surgeons had a radio in the OR and the song that played as Donovan was born was "I Dare You to Move" by Switchfoot. The first chorus says, "Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Every one's here
Every one's here
Every body's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?"
Shortly after the song started and these words were sung, Donovan was pulled out and up over my body and I did what I've done with each of my babies. I waited for crying. Those few seconds between being born and crying feel like years to me.
I spent the last part of my pregnancy with Donovan waiting for some sort of bombshell. Some sort of bad event, or horrible news concerning his health to drop out of the sky and fall on my head. How is it I can have 4 healthy babies when so many around me suffer loss or struggle so hard to be a parent in the first place? I wrestled with these worries and as different scenarios would play through my mind, each time I was reminded by God that it doesn't matter and HE in control.
And Donovan took his first breath and cried in that OR. And he still cries now and then. :)
The kids are doing really well with the new baby. They just love to kiss on him and talk to him. I am not getting much sleep these days, but I'll be honest, I haven't gotten much sleep since 2005, and I don't see that changing anytime soon.
See? Incredibly blessed!
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