Wednesday, February 13, 2008

YEAH!

Not to steal her thunder, but, I'm so excited! My best friend's havin' a boy!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

A Friday of Highs and Lows

Friday was crazy emotional for me.

I have been trying so hard to "get it back together" like I had it before Ainslie was born.
You know, get ready in the morning AND be on time after getting everyone else ready to go, and possibly be fully dressed with hair and make up when I get to school. It happens like MAYBE every 2 weeks or so for me....

I thought I was doing so good Friday. I had myself done, my stuff done -- my kids dropped off in time for me to actually be at work on time -- and then I got to school and realized I had forgotten my bottles to pump my milk. UGH! I don't know why, but I went into total melt down in my office and started crying -- not long enough to get it all out, but apparently long enough to make my face look screwed up and be called over the PA system to come help figure out a MORNING VIDEO ANNOUNCEMENT EMERGENGY in the front of the school building.

The rest of my day followed suit. One of my favorite kids who is recovering from luekeimia received an award from the school board and I was crying again....Some 4th grade boys got into a fight on my watch and I was yelling... the day seemed full of some sort of emotion or other.

The good news is, I lost another 3 lbs this week -- mainly from working my tail off and working out with each grade level -- 5 times, 5 days a week. It tends to help burn the fat, apparently.

Today I wanted to go to my home church's 100th Anniversary celebration. I have been talking to my husband about this for a month now. I know he didn't want to go with me, but I really wanted to go -- mainly to show off my beautiful girls and let everyone see how great I know they are. I got up 3 hours before, fed Ainslie, and after rushing to get everyone out the door, still wasn't able to leave on time. So, we left, only to turn back around and come home -- me in tears.

I just can't seem to get it together or get a moments peace. I am so frustrated I can't figure out how to get all the things I need to do, done. It makes me want to bang my head against the wall.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Words that SOUND LIKE "Underwear" in Spanish...

...but aren't.

Nothing strikes panic in your heart worse that 2nd graders laughing at what you are "trying" to say to them in Spanish. In PE we have been jumping rope. Today we did partner activities. I was trying to explain to my 2nd grade bilingual group that they were to get together in groups of 2. "Dos Personas," I said. The majority of them began to laugh hysterically. I immediately looked around for someone to tell me what I said wrong! I thought, Oh my gosh! I just said a cuss word in Spanish and they are all laughing!

Turns out, it sounded like I said "dos calzones (sp?)" which means, "two underwear."

ha ha ha... I love being an elementary teacher!

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Self Deprevation and Reward

If you deprive yourself enough, you'll be rewarded. Not too odd of a thought. Not to uncommon from the verse, "To live is Christ and to die is to gain." As a child I never understood that statement. It took a while for it all to click.

Sometimes depriving yourself of the things you "think" you love, makes you a better person. I am beginning to think that when I say I "love" food, it sounds a bit silly. Sure, there are things I really enjoy, but there are few foods that I "love." I can count on 1 hand how many foods have an emotional hold on me. The rest, are, (best to be described with a new term I am currently using) "not worth my calories."

My rewards have been nice so far, some natural -- weight loss, self respect and acceptance and an all-together healthier feeling inside and out, and some are not-so-natural: the cute little Starbucks Valentine's coffee mug I bought for myself for losing 10 lbs. :) ha ha hah .....

I know I won't ride this high for a long time and there will be moments of weakness, but I can say there is an overall feeling of strength and motivation that I haven't felt before. Most of the motivation coming from wanting to be an energetic and loving Mother who isn't too tired to do things with or FOR her children.

Either way, not only am I learning what I am capable of handling, or neglecting rather, I am feeling better and a whole 11.5 lbs lighter 1 month later.

ME:

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I have 2 lovely daughters and 2 handsome sons, who keep me very busy and a husband who keeps me grounded. I received my BA in Graphic Design Communication in 2003. A year and a half later after working in corporate America as a graphic designer and living through my OWN REAL LIFE "OFFICE SPACE" I got certified as art teacher. I have been teaching since the fall of 2004.